There is an entire universe that exists solely in your mind that is impossible to completely share with another person. You are a god onto yourself as beautiful and cruel as you wish to be. That is the realest shit ever.
Do not touch your body with bad intentions. Rub your belly when it is full. Stroke your soft skin. Hug yourself, even if it’s silly, because it feels nice. Pleasure yourself. Do not touch your body with bad intentions. Do not pinch at the fat on your stomach. Do not scratch at your skin. Do not hate the shell you’re encased in.
Fun History Fact: The overwhelming majority of cowboys in the U.S. were Indigenous, Black, and/or Mexican persons. The omnipresent white cowboy is a Hollywood studio concoction meant to uphold the mythology of white masculinity.
“I loved you so much once. I did. more than anything in the whole wide world. imagine that. what a laugh that is now. can you believe it? we were so intimate once upon a time I can’t believe it now. the memory of being that intimate with somebody. we were so intimate I could puke. I can’t imagine ever being that intimate with somebody else. I haven’t been.”—Raymond Carver, “Intimacy” (via prettypeachpeonies)